Oh dear......

BDF is looking a bit........ Well.... Tense.......

Oh well. I can't get on there at the same time that most of the girls that I usually talk to anyway....

I am so tired. My body is tired, my mind is tired, my heart is tired..... I want to sleep forever and ever... this isn't a suicide thing, it's just that my body feels so exhausted. If I could just sleep for a week, non stop, I might be able to do everything that everyone wants me too.

I see HIM tomorrow. A day together. I want it to be fun, relaxing and... I want to say romantic... but he's not my partner anymore, I keep forgetting.

I saw the OTHER HIM last night. He asked why I had to leave early, I said it was because I had to drive home. The usual response 'don't go home'. He wants me to stay with him again....

I have my period. 5 days early. What the hell is going on with my body??? That NEVER happens. Although, if I want to look at the positive, my body has done it's monthly 'I hate you and am going to make your life miserable' thing 5 days early, means it will be well and truly done by next weekend and Christmas.

HO HO HO