Well, he FINALLY called!

Took him long enough!! Tomorrow night, we're seeing a movie together. We may have dinner after. I'm going to the pub after that, I assume he'll be there too. I was so happy when he called. I really thought he wasn't going to.

What made it interesting was that my ex was in the car with me. He went all quite after the call. I think he wanted to ask me questions about my relationship with this guy, but he didn't. Whether he thought it wasn't his business or just didn't have the courage to ask, because of course he doesn't love me, I don't know. I know it wasn't because he didn't care, though. He did. I could feel it.

It's really funny, I know His ex wants him back. The last time I mentioned his name, he snapped at me about her. He said something about she got mad and stopped talking to him. Honestly, with out acting like crazy jealous girl, she is so full of her self. She always saw herself as the best thing on two legs. She thought she was so beautiful and funny and wonderful that there's no room for anyone else when she's around. Why he was attracted to her, I'm not sure. He said they had fun together. Fun and intimacy is great, don't get me wrong, but if that's all you have, what happens when the lights aren't out and the laughter stops? If you have nothing in common, no common interests, goals, hopes, dreams, what possible chance have you got for a relationship? Her ego was just too strong for him. She pushed himself so far into him that there was no room left for him or his wants. She kept telling him that she loved him and cared for him, yet she was a bully. It was her way or she sulked and abused him. I know she wants him back, who wouldn't want him? I know she calls him and I know she still texts him. I see him read messages or look at the screen when she calls and I'm around. She's pushing so hard and pushing her apparently wonderful attributes at him and I know he'll push her back so hard that she'll loose him altogether. I just hope it happens soon, so I can try to move on with him. Yes, our intimacy died out, but laughter, common interests and everything else is there. I truly believe intimacy can grow, as can his attraction in me. It just needs time.

In the mean time, I'm going out with my friend. Who knows why, but I love having someone around who loves and adores me. I pray that one day it will be HIM that adores me and I really believe that someday it will, but for now, my friend will do. I care about him and it's fun.