I finally find someone I could move on with.....

And he's leaving soon. He works for the same company as me. He's also an assistant manager and one of the most gentle, sweet, funny, and kindest men I've ever met. We get on so well. We always laugh together, smile and have so much fun when we work together. We can tease each other, then talk seriously within the same few minutes.

We would be so good together, I know it. And by the way he's started to touch me, smile at me and look at me, I think he might feel something too. The thing is, is that he's leaving soon, to move to another town with his girlfriend.

After 18 months of not even wanting to LOOK at another guy, I've founds someone I could actually start a relationship with, and he's attached. He's in a relationship and he's moving away.

And my ex is moving in with his girlfriend. After telling me he wouldn't, after promising he would be honest with me, I over heard a conversation and learned the truth. He was upset. He told me how much he was sorry and how he didn't want to loose me as a friend, but I just don' know any more. I love him so much and I don't know if I could imagine life without him being a part of it, but how do I trust someone who can't be honest with me? As I told him, it hurts when I hear he's moving on with his life, but I'd rather hear it from him and not someone else. I'm still determined to win him back, I just wish he'd at least be honest with me, so that our relationship could progress. He said he'd been a coward and didn't want to hurt me. I guess we'll just have to see how things go.

Last night was wonderful. Seeing the show. After we'd talked and I'd gotten upset and had time to calm down, we had a good night. Yesterday and today, seeing those educational shows was incredible. We shared a wonderful experience and I think it helped bring us a little closer. We'll see what happens, I guess. To feel so apart, then so close is just hard.

I was in tears last night, because I was so hurt to hear he was moving in with her. Then, this calmness fell over me, and I thought 'it will be ok. We'll be together eventually'. I don't know why this thought came to me, but the tears stopped and I was ok. Was it a message from my Dad? A reckless hoping? I don't know. It just felt so right. Like it's really going to happen. Only time will tell.